You keep suggesting that when the Creole is asked to do something by the received culture from whom he seeks acceptance, he is to disturb or half what was requested of him to maintain some sense of independence. It seems you would frustrate yourself in both regards. As you may have the opportunity to sit in front of a French Queen, if you told her that you were going to kill yourself, she would walk away. Maybe you thought you are to be the only one and that they would understand your motive when you dont do as you are told and someone is dead because of it.

You keep suggesting that when the Creole is asked to do something by the received culture from whom he seeks acceptance, he is to disturb or half what was requested of him to maintain some sense of independence. It seems you would frustrate yourself in both regards. As you may have the opportunity to sit in front of a French Queen, if you told her that you were going to kill yourself, she would walk away.   Maybe you thought you are to be the only one and that they would understand your motive when you don't do as you are told and someone is dead because of it.